Maybe this wasn't what I planned

Wasn't what I had in mind

You write your own future

You can’t rewrite your past

I keep all your photographs in a box

Shut up and sealed with tape

Your letters line the walls of my room

I can’t escape your words

Haunting, like the memory of your smile

The first time we met

Maybe this wasn't what I planned

Can’t play with fire, toy with fate

Swap signs, I turned left at the crossroads

Should have taken a right…

Lost and wandering cliched paths

And so my heart stopped beating

When our eyes stopped colliding

You may not be exquisitely handsome

But you were to me

Stare,

Stare at me forever

I’d love to see you when you’re old

Never tire of that smile

Maybe this wasn't what I planned

The realization hits so hard sometimes

All I can do is put my head in my knees

Suffocate in the dark

Until your thoughts pull me out again

Sometimes in the mornings I pretend

I’ll see you today

You’d pick me up again

Twirling round, round and round

Constant spinning helps settle my head

Since you let go of my hand…

This wasn't what I planned

To be able to remember exactly how it felt

To have your lips whisper my name

I can still feel your skin on mine

The waters so hot to burn the pain away

Hell, I STILL love you